o.O today a boring day for me?? keke.. went to sch but dun haf P.E.. sibei sian ar.. so long bo play bball le.. den go 4E during P.E lesson sia.. saw their E-math grade.. so paiseh sia.. their first is 97/100.. my marks 79/100 nia.. so big de difference.. haiz.. math really damn hard manx.. in 4E nia already got 38 ppl win me le.. my math so lousy mehx?? =( den chinese oso sia.. today got spelling test.. 100 words sia.. onli score 15 marks.. how to survive.. o.O
after sch go learn how to fold 2 hearts using 1 note.. =PpP finally i noe how to fold le.. wakaka.. so nice.. =D got 3 series le.. 1 is straw de.. 1 is 1 heart using note.. n 1 is 2 heart using 1 note.. =PpP after tat jiu pei my frz go lot 1 eat?? eat pizza.. keke.. no need pay.. got ppl treat.. =D second time eat pizza sia.. first time is during the june holiday?? after the mt rinjani training.. very fun sia.. keke.. den damn sway lor.. my knee hit tat chair.. haiz.. now knee damn painful ar..
erm.. need study well for my O lvl le.. o.O need some of u guys help.. if i dunno anything ask u all k..?? =D same thing.. if u all math got problem can ask me.. bOoK mE.. when i'm free.. i'm alway there to help u all.. =D let do well for math together.. =PpP
actually wan thx elson manx.. keke.. he's there to motivate me lor.. everytime i see him.. i will think of studying de.. dunno y lehx.. he make me feel like scoring for my O lvl.. kEkE.. leong wei oso.. they are alway there to push me.. xie xie ni men.. 31 more days to our O lvl.. [jia you ba]

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14/13/12/11/10/9/8/7/6/5/4/3/2/1 <--- every seconds is ticking.. so dun waste anymore time.. da jia lai jia you ba.. =D

erm.. yesterday too bz?? nvr had the time to write a entry.. keke.. yesterday take back math result sia.. paper 1 got 63/80.. paper 2 got 79/100.. erm.. kinda happy wif my result?? A1 le.. finally got 1 subject A1.. L1R3 16 points le.. haben add DnT.. still dunno my overrall DnT grade.. keke.. hope is yesterday chinese lesson go AVA room sia.. keke.. can play piano.. wakaka.. played for my classmate.. but i'm too nervous.. played not very smooth.. haiz.. next time muz play better.. =D after tat got physic lab lesson sia.. =D kinda fun?? can do sia.. 15 marks for it.. muz make sure my O lvl science practical can score well.. lesson till 4pm.. den after tat jiu go home le..
erm.. den today lehx.. nothing much?? lesson end kinda early.. 1240 finish le.. but stayed in school till 4pm++.. kinda hungry today.. so ate 2 plate of foods.. keke.. =D eat so much still so thin.. =( now dunno wat to do lehx.. planning to study later ba.. =D L1R4 muz get <19.. my aim.. very hard to get ar.. =.- but i think i will work hard towards it ba.. =D
34 days O lvl coming le wor.. everyone muz jia you ar.. 55 more days O lvl end le.. keke.. can enjoy after tat..

[everyone let's work hard for the 34 days ba.. u all can do it de.. *jia you*]

haiz.. today morning after Dnt going back to class tat time.. saw her sia.. but i nvr turn to look at her sia.. =.= sad sia.. haiz.. in my mind keep thinking tat i got no chances le.. tat's y dun wan to look at her.. den go back class jiu sian 1/2 le.. =( so moody le.. den take back english paper.. heng i pass ar.. math teacher nvr come again.. no math paper to take back.. o.O after tat jiu haf SS paper.. fail till siao sia.. den i say i want take A1.. tio suay.. sian.. dun wan study le lar.. haiz.. everybody look dwn on me.. =( physic paper oso bo pass.. haiz.. my result sux.. i wan drop sch le.. dun wan study le..

haha.. today morning woke up jiu start to learn piano?? finally finish learning the chorus part le.. keke.. but abit sad ar.. actually last time learn coz wan to play for her de.. wanted her to be the first one to listen to it.. but.. i think now got no chances le.. actually playing piano can let someone relax.. everytime when i sad.. i will keep playing piano de.. can make me feel better sia.. keke.. erm.. tml sch reopen le sia.. sian.. hope tml can get math result.. hope i dun fail it manx.. if fail i dunno how to survive le.. juz now go watch movie.. jackie chan de.. very nice sia.. enjoyed the show.. den after tat jiu go play bball wif my frz.. sian.. nvr wear bball shoe.. den take off shoe play.. now leg pain sia.. but nvm ba..

"haha" so many days le.. =( haiz.. today morning pei my frz go sentosa play sia.. tat's the onli time i can relax myself?? 8am woke up le.. went to bukit panjang plaza to meet my frz.. after tat jiu go play volleyball le.. very hot sia.. but nvm ba.. sun burn nia.. no pain de.. had nvr felt any pain for very long le.. play till 6pm++ jiu go eat le.. erm.. eat alot of things sia.. maybe wan fa xia ba.. eat 3 things sia.. everyone so shock.. den after tat jiu go take MRT home le.. erm.. finally got time for my buddies to an wei wo.. thx to them manx.. w/o them.. i dunno wat to do.. they listen to my problems.. at least i felt better.. but suddenly think abt tat thing again.. sad ar.. moody.. wan to cry le.. but.. no tears anymore.. slowly walk home.. pei liyi go home first.. coz dun wan so early go home.. purposly walk slowly.. den my flat foot.. make my leg so painful.. cannot tahan anymore.. walk slippers cannot walk for too long de.. =( hen tong de.. need walk special shoes.. wun forget the SU thing de.. so useless.. HAHA.. HAHA.. I'M SO USELSS..

today need go back sch for lesson wor.. den walk to sch in the morning.. very lazy.. so walk slowly.. keke.. lucky bo late wor.. juz in time.. den went for physic lab lesson.. den i do very fast sia.. first to finish i think.. keke.. den after tat juz recieved english prelim paper le.. yeah yeah.. i pass sia.. so happy abt it.. received my bio result oso.. pass oso sia.. but nvr scored well.. very sad sia.. mdm roszana nvr come sch oso.. sian sia.. bo math result take back.. if math nvr get A1.. i dun wan study le.. hopeless le.. today got take back nanfa paper sia.. me SU sia.. servely underweight.. den my frz say SU means so useless/stupid u?? haiz.. hao shang xin ar.. but nvm ba.. used to it le..

haha.. stupid sia.. today she got sch.. still wait like siao?? dunno for wat sia.. everytime like tat de.. ming ming zhi dao she wun call le.. still wan wait.. so stubborn.. maybe wat victoria said is rite.. if she dun call me.. means.. haha.. =( i so stupid ar..

haiz..

haiz.. read all ur comment le.. u all always tell me the same thing de.. but u all dunno how hard is it for me to forget her.. =( zhen de zhen de hen nan lehx.. u all dunno y i alway dun wan gif up de.. u all always say tat she not gd not worth.. but to me.. i nvr felt it b4.. haiz.. zhe me ban.. ='( today math paper oso.. den nvr think jiu anyhow do le.. let u guys win me ba.. i'm here to lose u all de ba..

håiz.. wåt i håve bEeÑ dOiñG miGhT bE stUpiD mÄñ.. everyone is scolding me stupid.. maybe it's truth lor.. i'm the most stupid man in the world manx.. haiz.. last nite nvr slp sia.. haiz.. keep hoping.. but.. today morning althought very tired.. but still dun dare to slp.. scare later.. =( now already 7pm le.. hao shang xin ar.. now very very moody.. dun feel like going sch tml.. tml got math paper 2 n bio paper 2.. think wun be doing well for the two paper ba.. coz no mood at all.. fail jiu fail lor.. i dun mind le.. the most leave the sch wif a n lvl cert lor.. really gone case le.. everytime stay at home rot nia.. not happy at all.. so sad every every day.. wei she mo muz like tat.. haiz.. maybe wo zi zhou zi shou ba.. this kind of things.. dunno wan tell who.. all of my frz so bz.. have their own things to do.. den have to hide it to myself.. sometime i really hope tat i no need to think so much.. but.. wan tell those problems to my parents.. but they oso dun care de lor.. really hen xin ku.. in sch still need to act till like very happy.. wo bu xiang.. i dun wan to act.. i'm really very shang xin.. onli when leong wei they all free den got ppl pei me tok tok abt this kind of things.. but.. it's like few weeks 1 time nia.. den in front of my other frz.. need to help them.. but actually i'm the one wif the most problems.. haiz.. =( wei she mo yao like tat.. make myself so tong ku.. my sis keep telling me tat galz are hurt easily.. but i told her tat guys too.. although they looks fine.. but actually they are hurt easily oso.. i'm heartless now.. too much dmg done.. cannot be recover le.. TIME.. everyone is telling me the same thing.. but i dun think time can help me this time.. =( it's already so long le.. but still cannot forget it.. haiz.. in sch still got so many ppl wan challenge my math result.. haiz.. u all wan win gif u all lar.. i dun wan le.. ='( tml is urs chances le.. do well for ur paper2.. u will sure win me de.. wat L1R4 <19 points.. i dun wan le.. i dun wan anything anymore.. all those are useless le.. [soBx SobX]

haiz.. now very very sad ar.. y everytime i so sway de.. =( today play bball fall dwn again.. den knee injured.. hen tong.. reach home at 10pm.. den jiu go bath le.. after bath le jiu go inside my room.. waited so long.. but... ='( hao shang xin ar.. but nvm.. i will continue to wait de.. HEN XIANG QI SI LE.. i'm so shi bai.. haiz.. haiz.. i'm useless aR..!!

d[T.T]b <-- sad sad de wo.. ='(

erm.. so many days nvr write le.. keke.. last two days tou hen tong.. den nvr get a chance to write lor.. erm.. today damn stupid lor.. go sch juz for science paper 1.. 1hr paper.. from 8am to 9am nia.. den jiu accompany my frz go play bbAll.. the science paper can do sia.. wakaka.. think will score this time ba..

after playing bball.. abt 11+ jiu go lim bang see something.. den there dun haf wor.. so i asked leong to pei me go lot 1 buy.. haha.. so zhun de.. reach lot 1 saw my mum.. keke.. den she ask $$ from me sia.. o.O she said she nvr bring wallet.. lame sia.. but nvm.. keke.. after tat jiu rush back to sch..

reach sch le.. nothing to do.. sit behind sch canteen.. tok wif elson they all.. tok abt lots of craps.. keke.. den 1240 de bell rang le.. i jio elson they all go play bball.. played for dunno how many match jiu very tired le.. so hot ar.. sweating like siao kia.. den rest for awhile jiu go home le.. reach home jiu have a nap.. erm.. kinda shu fu?? keke..

write till here ba..

haiz.. now head very pain ar.. think wun be writing very long ba.. today prelim paper still ok ba.. but dun think can do well lor.. den today very early reach home wor.. my sis n parents got shocked.. keke.. den study for my test?? tml math test sia.. now headache.. hope tml dun headache ar.. tml math paper muz do well.. muz get A1 for miss sim n mdm roszana de.. =PpP erm.. shou bu liao le.. very pain.. i go prepare le jiu slp le.. tml den add in wat i missed out ba..

finally can relax le.. offically passed up my dnt coursework.. yeah.. no need so stress le.. but still regret manx.. didn't spent time doing in at the first half of the year.. den rush like mad now.. folio is like shit ar.. bo A for dnt de lar.. haiz.. muz work hard for other sub le..
today english prelim paper sia.. sure die de.. dunno wat i'm writing manx.. but it's over le.. have to work hard for O lvl eng ba.. den collect the math mock exam solution paper.. wah.. tat sec4 express gal scored full mark sia.. see liao oso jealous.. but wat to do.. they are better than me..
finally tml can play bball w/o any fear le.. last time play still need to hide when mr loh appeared.. keke.. but wun be playing too often oso ba.. wan study le.. muz get A for my math n science.. so tat i can join SP for the course i wan.. minimum point L1R4 = 19 points.. keke.. JIA YOU..
erm.. yesterday very very late slp wor.. den today damn tired.. reach parade square jiu fall aslp le.. den Mr lim asked me y i so tired.. den i didn't say anything.. juz shake my head.. my eyes can't even open up ar.. den whole body no strength.. haiz.. so weak de.. headache somemore ar.. hao tong ar.. den still need to think wat to write for english.. *pain pain*
today nvr see her sia.. haiz.. miss her so much ar.. i noe today when i having break.. her class having folkdance lesson.. but i dun dare to look at her.. =xXx keep toking to leong wei.. haiz.. regret ar.. if got see her jiu hao.. hao xiang ta ar..
juz reached home at 11pm.. so late hor.. but used to it le.. =D saw alot of miss calls sia.. but think she fall aslp le ba.. better dun disturb her.. haben eat dinner oso sia.. o.O everyone now slping le.. den alone in the living room thinking abt... d[o.O]b today oso very sway de lor.. forget to bring $$ sia.. den left $6 for the whole day.. lucky i dun eat much.. keke.. =PpP can save $$ oso wor..
think i stop here ba.. tml got english prelim paper2.. have to rest eariler..

*listening to Wang Li Hong - Wei Yi*
¤MiSsiNg tHe pAst tiMe aR¤

erm.. after a week of "holiday"..?? finally got a chances to see her le.. =$ today morning raining wor.. den i keep hoping tat i would stop.. so i would have a chances to see her.. keke.. den today got chinese prelim paper wor.. i'm the onli one w/o dictionary wor.. so paiseh de.. but i managed to finish my paper.. =D kinda easy? think can do well in this paper ba..
after chinese paper jiu reach dwn canteen do my dnt folio.. by 5pm muz hand up sia.. how to finish.. -.- den my frz all inside dnt block doing their artefact.. den i have to sit in the canteen alone doing my folio lor.. do till 5pm sia.. still 51 pages nia.. so little.. ='( den need pass up le.. den we go beg mr loh.. den he extend to 9pm tonight.. wah.. i was so happy abt it.. den i continue rushing my folio..
9pm reach le.. finish 64 pages onli.. still not enough for a A manx.. den mr loh say tml is finally deadline.. SoNg aR.. got extra time to finish my artefact le.. hao gao xing.. hope can score well ba.. spent so much time in Dnt.. keke.. den i told Miss Sim tat i wan get a A1 for math.. den my frz all say i tok crap.. nvm.. i will prove them wrong.. =PpP
today 1030 den reach home.. think better dun call her ba.. scare she slping le.. today she sure very tired de.. got training wor.. sure got pt de.. hao ke lian.. den saw her going home at abt 7pm++ haiz.. but miss her voice so much.. how how?? =( juz hope tat tml morning she would call me ba..
erm.. oso hoping tat she wun be so stress ar.. see her so stress.. very tong ku ar.. if i can help her jiu hao.. onli can ask her frz to help her le.. hope tat they would take gd care of her.. tml got english prelim paper.. dunno can do well mahx.. hope can ba.. muz score for prelim le.. keke..
think i write till here ba.. not enough time to waste le..

*always hiding in some corner looking after u*

read her blogspot le.. haiz.. she gonna hack everything de.. really thinks tat i got no hope le lor.. somemore i made her so fan abt this things.. blame me ba.. everybody blame me ba.. wo shi hai ren wang.. wo hai so many ppl.. blame me blame me.. scold me oso can.. beat me oso can.. juz do watever u all wat to do to me ba.. =(

erm.. today woke up damn early lor.. wanted to wait for her call.. but.. nvm ba.. went to sch for dnt sia.. but mr loh not helping me.. very very sad.. dunno wat else can i do manx.. =( dnt sure cannot score le.. no need study the course i wan le.. den today shoot 100 3pts ball again.. when shooting.. keep thinking of the sad things.. haiz.. feel like dieing ar..
after tat i continue doing my folio in canteen.. doing it alone.. sit dwn there.. concentrate on it.. do quite alot of pages wor.. keke.. quite happy wif it.. den was so hungry.. but cannot go eat.. not enough time to finish my dnt le.. bo bian.. haf to starve.. after tat watch tv from 7pm.. keke.. listen to lots of songs manx.. so nice.. 1030pm den go home wor.. keke.. sent liyi home oso.. so late le.. very dangerous.. cannot let her go home alone.. so far.. sent 3 gals b4 wor.. jing yi/liyi/her.. haiz.. no more chances le ba??
haiz.. after reading wat yin ci wrote.. i felt so... haiz.. maybe i'm the same manx.. irritating to her already.. maybe love is really selfish ba.. but i rather i'm the one tat's hurt.. not her.. anyway.. if i see her happy.. i will be happy too.. i guess ba.. but.. but..
everytime walking home.. sure will see alot of couples de.. den remind me abt all those things sia.. i really feel like banging the wall.. so tat i can dun think so much.. everyday play bball.. wan to let out my feeling.. so everytime challenage yong siang.. wan reject ppl den will feel better ba..
[ to yong siang = soli if this few weeks i always suay u or hurt u ba.. actually i noe tat u r oso very sad de.. but haiz.. blame me ba.. i very bad.. nvr cheer u up but make u more sad.. next time dun let me le.. scold me if u wan ba.. i dun mind de.. really dun mind de.. i dun haf any feeling le.. SOLI YONG SIANG.. =( DUI BU QI.. pls forgive me..]
hao hao hao hao hao shang xin ar.. =( =( =( =( =( =( nothing can help me le..

wah.. today woke up at 8am wor.. den bio remedial lesson start at 8am sia.. rush like siao.. reach sch at abt 845am wor.. den start doing bio paper.. very hard to do sia.. after few hours.. miss wong came out to teach us.. keke.. have a fun time.. =pPp learnt alot of new stuff.. gonna work hard for bio lor..
after tat jiu go do my dnt folio wif my frz.. do till 1pm+ wor.. after tat jiu go mac eat wif my frz.. very full sia.. after tat jiu go play bball.. so tiring.. run so much.. =xXx or maybe i old le.. after tat jiu continue doing folio le.. keke.. do till 4pm+.. felt so bored.. den play baseball wif wen hao they all.. using ping pong ball.. wakaka.. so fun manx.. after tat jiu ask mr loh how to do my artefact.. but he said he very bz.. no time to teach me.. die le lor.. no need complete it le..
after tat i went on doing my finishing.. sand the woodpieces.. so smooth.. keke.. so happy wif it.. den inside dnt block recieved her call.. keke.. she at keat hong park sia.. =O juz below my hse.. but useless sia.. i'm in sch.. haiz.. do till 9pm+ den jiu go home le.. keep hoping tat can see her sia.. purposly walk pass the park.. den suddenly got ppl call me sia.. den found out it's her frz.. can;t see well.. coz nvr wear spec.. my eyes very lousy.. =xXx
read all of ur comments le.. everyone is asking me to jia you.. i oso wan sia.. but i dun think i got any oil to add le.. haiz.. i dun wan to lose her.. really dun wan.. haiz.. today is 2mths le.. =( hao shang xin ar..

erm.. today morning wake up at 7am.. waited for her call.. YEAH.. she called me today.. so happy.. den jiu prepare to go sch le.. got to complete my dnt project.. den reach sch at abt 9am.. do till abt 1pm den go for lunch.. eat till 2pm+ ba.. den go play bball awhile.. =D after tat jiu continue wif my dnt project le.. do till 4pm jiu close le.. den played bball again.. till 5pm+ den jiu go home..
erm.. reach home le.. nothing to do.. jiu go play piano awhile.. =D learning in process.. wan faster complete learning manx.. ^.^ after tat jiu go bukit panjang plaza wif my parents.. for my dinner.. =D after tat jiu go mac pei yong siang do folio wor.. o.O do till 10pm wor..
miss her voice so much.. so decided to call her.. told her tat i going to the bus-stop again.. but she dun seems to be very happy wor.. she asked me not to go.. but i insists of going.. maybe i'm juz too stubborn lor.. but really used to it le.. everytime i pass by bukit panjang.. sure will purposly walk pass there de.. sit there till abt 11pm ba.. den jiu go home le..
reach home le.. chat wif yin ci.. watch tv.. write blogspot.. keke.. saw ah shu de comment le.. i oso wan to believe in myself.. but i oso tend to anyhow think de.. alway thinks tat y is him better than me de.. wei she mo.. wei she mo.. xiang tai duo le.. =( tml jiu 2 mths le.. haiz.. so fast 2 mths pass le.. although 2 mths pass le.. i still cannot forget those times.. today morning suddenly think abt the mt rinjani trip.. so fun.. so nice.. but.. nvr gonna appear again manx..
think i write till here ba.. if not i'm gonna become more n more sad le..

haiz.. read le yin ci de comment.. u already said tat i lose out alot le mahx.. how to win.. fair competition?? i still thinks tat i will lose lor.. i asked so many of my frz.. they all agree tat i'm sure to lose.. wat confident would i left wif?? confident for hidding?? i nvr wanted to gif up.. tat's no gif up in my dictionary.. i wun gif up so easily de.. for ppl who thinks tat she's bad.. i wan to tell u.. no matter how u all think.. in my heart.. she's always a nice gal.. i wun regret saying tat.. even if the whole world tell me tat.. wo bu yao fan qi..

erm.. yesterday nite waited for her call till abt 1am+ ba.. but she nvr call me.. o.O haiz.. nvm ba.. maybe she very tired.. den nvr call me de.. *zi wo an wei* today morning wake up at 6am+ ar.. dunno she got go sch mahx.. wanted to try my luck again.. waited for her call again.. but.. haiz.. anyhow think again.. =(
den went to sch for english mock exam.. paper 1 compostion question was tat "describe tat you made a mistake tat upset ur frz.. n how u tried to put things right.." when i saw this topic.. tat incident rush through my mind again.. actually thinking of writing tat.. but end up writing other things.. but the ending i nvr change.. i write tat he nvr trust frz anymore n wanted to leave singapore.. haiz.. think of it jiu sad le..
after tat went to mac for my lunch.. keep checking my phone.. see whether she got call me mahx.. but.. nothing appeared.. den went back to sch for my DnT.. den she called me.. so happy sia.. =) can hear her voice le.. den at 4pm+ went to canteen to do my folio.. keke.. helped her to solve some math questions.. so happy.. den do DnT till 9pm+.. reach home at abt 10pm..
haiz.. wo hen "ke ai".. ke lian de mei ren ai.. haiz.. =( =(

haiz.. after reading the comment given by xiaoash ( on the 5/9/2004 ) .. i really dunno wat to do.. can anyone pls give me some advise.. =(

erm.. yesterday too late reach home.. den nvr write blogspot.. =xXx yesterday quite happy ba.. coz.. got to see her for the few seconds?? althought it's onli few seconds.. is very gd enuff le.. keke.. hao gao xing.. yesterday do folio in plaza from 3pm++ till 9pm+ i think.. haiz.. feel so sad when doing folio.. Liyi ask me get lost.. haiz.. maybe i'm juz to irritating manx.. cannot blame anyone but myself ba..
today morning woke up very early.. dunno she wake up le mahx.. wanted to sms her.. but scare tat she still slping.. at last i decided to sms her le.. sms awhile she jiu go sch le.. got badz training.. den i oso go sch for my dnt n english remedial.. waited 20mins for Mr Tan outside the staff room den in the end found out tat Mr Tan on MC today.. after tat jiu continue for my dnt ba.. den nvr eat lunch.. den do till 7pm+ ba.. played a stupid game.. mixing all type of water n drinking it.. very sick but fun.. tml english mock exam le.. dunno can pass mahx.. haiz.. my english sux.. how?? gd luck to myself ba..
today saw her in sch.. keke.. very happy wor.. :$ can see her gd enuff le.. maybe u all will think tat i'm crazy ba.. but nvm lar.. crazy jiu crazy lor.. ppl alway say they jealous coz my math very gd.. haiz.. I DUN WAN.. all becoz of math.. :'( hai wo so much.. i rather fail my math.. be a normal person.. nobody is prefect in this world.. i really hope tat i can be a normal person.. not wat u said.. math genius.. WO BU YAO.. haiz.. i oso need someone to care abt me de.. :(

erm.. haiz.. yesterday bo slp till.. too sad to fall asleep le.. den morning still need go for training.. wif my swollen knee.. cannot run much.. so go there i become so useless.. or shld i say i'm already useless.. =( den injuried my left knee today.. so damn sway de.. yesterday injuried right side.. today is left side.. i'm SWAY.. dun come near me if u dun wan to bad luck.. den after tat we played match.. 2 against 2.. me wif my tag partner song cherng.. first match was against gabriel n ben.. both of them jump so high.. dun think can jump win them sia.. but in the end we won.. 21-0.. so happy.. the score is so nice.. second match was against zhi hao ( elson bro ) n victor ( elson cousin ).. i thought we gonna lost this game.. but in the end.. we won.. 21-12.. wif my 5 3pts shot.. finally.. my 3pts shot will score.. after tat jiu prepare go home le.. went to 7-11 to buy water.. den drink on the way home.. reach home at abt 12pm?? after bathing jiu went for a nap.. maybe too tired le lor.. slp till 2.30 wor.. after tat jiu start doing my homework.. wah.. got alot sia.. =( but bo bian.. have to work hard.. prelim comin le.. i dun wan to lose him in study.. i already lose him in so many things.. study is the only thing i can win him i think.. got 7 sets of physic paper to complete.. today at least muz do 4..n my DnT folio oso.. muz at least do finish detail development ( shape )..

today morning.. she called me.. so happy.. den we chatted for awhile ba.. den i very stupid de.. nvr tok much wif her de.. den she say we like become a stranger le.. haiz.. den got second line.. she said she will call me awhile later.. den i wait lor.. 7 hrs le.. althought very long.. but it's worth waiting de.. i believe.. today ben go see my hp.. den i haben change the wallpaper.. he asked me.. y i still using this wallpaper.. den i reply him.. no point telling him.. he wun understand de.. den he still read thru those sms.. haiz.. anyhow read ppl sms.. dunno wat he gonna think about it manx.. den think my dad got use my com today ba.. if like tat he sure noe about it le.. my com got so many things about her de.. den.. argh.. wo hao fan ar.. wei she mo.. ='( everytime read thru those sms will feel much better de.. very happy.. but.. nvm ba..

think i write till here ba.. go do my homework le..

today wake up at 7.15am wor.. need to go to school to do DnT project.. thought today morning she would call me de.. but nvr.. think i might not be important to her anymore.. but i'm sure she will be someone important to me forever.. every now n then will read those sms she sent me.. o.O nvr ever gonna recieve this kind of sms anymore..
in school keep checking my handphone.. to see whether tat's any miss call.. but.. =( den i did something i had nvr done for a long time.. tat is to shoot 100 balls of 3 pts.. haiz.. i usually do it when i'm sad onli.. today off standard.. shoot like shit.. really very useless now.. dunno how to play well.. run so slow.. jump so low..
den went to Bukit Panjang CC at about 5pm.. went to plaza for dinner first.. =D after tat went to CC for basketball match.. sian.. first match jiu injuried myself le.. now my knee swollen le.. cannot bend.. hen tong.. =( but muz ren.. nobody to take care of me now.. haiz.. den injuried my right ankle oso.. so sway de.. whole right leg injuried.. like fei wu now.. or maybe i'm one..
den sit outside plaza tok wif wen hao they all again.. =D tat's the onli time tat i can let out my feeling.. they understand me best.. every moment i sure to think tat i lost le.. i'm not gonna win him.. he's so much better than me.. i'm a bad guy.. dunno y.. maybe i'm really bad.. the way i do things ba..
haiz.. i'm a idiot.. i'm a fool.. i'm stupid.. i'm useless.. i'm ugly.. i'm nothing.. all gd things dun comes to me.. WO HEN MEI YONG AR..

yesterday nite din't slp well sia.. wake up at 2am.. n 5am.. abit tired.. but nvm.. =D yeah yeah.. finally.. today morning she called me.. i was so happy.. it really enlightened my day.. keke.. after chatting wif her start to prepare for school.. today lazy to walk to school.. so asked my dad to send me.. really muz thx him alot.. wake up so early juz to send me to school.. elbow still swollen.. but dun feel any pain le.. finally..
today take back practical test paper.. got 18.5/30 marks.. abit sad about it.. i din't score for this test.. haiz.. but i tell myself i will do better the next time.. for sure.. den got biology lab lesson.. quite fun.. enjoy lab lessons alot.. dunno y.. =pPp den recess time yasmin treat me drink water sia.. so gd.. keke.. after school went for DnT.. do till 5pm den went to canteen rest le.. start doing my folio.. went to lim bang mac for out dinner at 7pm++
went back to school to finish our dinner.. eating half way.. was asked to leave the school.. as there is no teachers in school already and they had to lock up the gate.. den we went back to mac.. continue doing my folio.. do till 10pm.. so tiring.. but i enjoyed it alot.. hope can finish it faster.. den call home to inform my parents about it.. den ask my cousin whether my phone ring anot.. haiz.. nvr ring again.. maybe she sleep le ba..
today miss serene lai told us about our learning attitude.. she say tat teachers put in so much effort and we dun appreciate it.. this sentence is so meaningful manx.. i felt guilty about it.. we always take things to lightly.. nvr do it seriously b4.. regret manx.. gonna work hard for myself.. i wan to have my freedom of choose.. wish me good luck ba..
as usual.. today will think of her again.. dunno y.. but will think for her for any moment de.. miss her so much.. but dunno wat can be done.. somemore it's useless.. haiz..

haiz.. today morning 5am jiu wake up le.. thought tat she would call me.. but.. =( wait for nothing again.. today not a gd day manx.. elbow still swollen.. cannot do anything.. so painful.. dunno y today super tired.. feel so slpy whole day.. today bo PE lesson oso.. hand injuried.. cannot play.. somemore raining.. den go back class do my Dnt folio.. after tat jiu recess le.. after recess got chinese lesson.. got test sia.. we all oso dunno sia.. sure fail le lar.. nvr study at all.. still fall aslp during the paper.. =(
after sch got math mock exam wor.. haiz.. first time dun very confident.. do till very stress.. keep thinking of giving up.. but haiz.. still have to finish the paper.. got lots of questions nvr do.. sure cannot get gd grade le.. den already very fan le.. gabriel still wan suay me.. den i blast off manx.. soli for tat.. really very stress n fan for this few days.. lots of math homework.. Dnt dateline coming.. dunno wat to do manx.. WO HEN FAN AR..
after the mock exam.. stay in sch do dnt folio.. do till 9pm wor.. purposly de.. coz i wan myself to be tired.. so i wun think so much.. but sad to say.. i still think alot even if i'm tired.. reach home first thing to ask is to ask whether my phone ring anot.. haiz.. the answer is no again.. hao shang xin ar.. =( today in sch they tok about relationship.. haiz.. i encourage not to have sia.. it's really very hurting.. ='(

SCORPIO MAN
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> A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily
> hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but
> himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly
> charisma. He is a compassionate man . He absorbs other
> people sentimental feeling and pain. He is a good
> psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused
> feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make
> things happen and do things well. He does not like people who
> never try to help themselves before asking other people for
> favors.
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> He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in
> life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all
> his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small
> matter or a big project. One of the most success man in all
> the Zodiac. He is a very patient man and can waits for
> years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak
> determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he
> thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched.
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> If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him,
> sometimes may be too much than you have asked for. He is
> serious about love and relationship and will not waste time
> with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.
> He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad
> thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do
> not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag
> now.
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> If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his
> comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be
> able to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are fat (and
> you are fat), he will say "yes, as big as a balloon". He
> makes such comments because he cares for you, so do
> something about your weight and do not get up set with him.
> If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he
> will not say such think just to please you if he does not
> really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who
> like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this
> guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be
> vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his
> pay back time. He is very serious about your promise, do
> not promise something you could not keep.
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> He loves his friends and will do anything for his close
> friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front
> of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never
> understand what he means if you do not really know him. He
> is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking
> or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.
> He memorize everything well. You may say something that you
> already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants
> to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not
> like people to have power over him.
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> When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this
> Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does
> not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is
> his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him
> about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman
> who sits around waiting for his call.
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today morning wake up at 6am++.. need go see doctor.. haiz.. but went there le.. the clinic nvr open.. den on the way.. fall asleep in my dad's car.. dunno y.. suddenly dream of last time again.. wei she mo.. haiz.. told myself not to think of all tat de.. but it the end still like tat.. argh.. den reach home.. no mood to do anything oso.. lock myself in my room.. start thinking abt wat muz i do.. take out my DnT folio but nvr start at all.. juz can;t concentrate..

yesterday nite chat wif yin ci.. o.O she told me not to regret wat i decided.. but i'm scare.. i noe i'm sure to regret.. but wat else can i do.. how how...? argh.. gonna go crazy any moment.. y can't i juz live normal life?? like my sis.. =( she can enjoy watching movie wif her frz.. but i can't.. zhen de hen tong ku ar.. love really hurts manx.. i always tell my frz tat last time i used to have a small heart full of happiness.. but now.. all the sadness had overcome the happiness things n even made my heart bigger wif sadness..

elbow still mei you hao.. still swollen.. dun dare tell my parents.. sure kanna scolding de.. they sure dun let me play basketball de.. hao tong ar.. tml still got PE ar.. the best is can play match wif 4B.. tat time lose them.. very sad.. if tml play.. i'm sure i will try my best to win them..

another boring day for me again.. all my frz went out.. den i had to stay at home alone.. haiz.. 10++ days nvr chat wif her le.. tat time see her online.. but dun dare to chat wif her.. i'm scare.. i'm scare tat she will ignore me.. sometime i think tat i'm irritating.. tat's y she dun even wan to call me now.. maybe life is like tat.. have to accept it ba.. 2 more months ba.. den i can leave school le.. sick of school le..

think i stop here ba.. wish u all have a gd day ba..

[#] Alvin Yip
[#] 18th Nov 87
[#] shadowfate_87@hotmail.com
[#] Nanyang Poly - Business Informatics

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